Time Off

Posted by Heather
In career, life
5Apr 08

     Well, it’s been almost 5 weeks since I have been at the “day job”, and I am  glad that I took some time off, in so many ways.  The first week and a half or so, I was struggling to let go of everything associated with the job – stress, expectations, pressure etc., and it really was a process for me,  and wasn’t easy.  I am the kind of person that needs to feel that I am always getting things done, accomplishing something –  and the word “relax” is not in my vocabulary.  Even though I was purposely taking time off work, I was still writing myself long lists of things I felt “needed” to be done each day.  In essence, I still felt the need to be “working” in some way, since I was still so tightly wound at the time.

     After that first week and a bit, I finally started to “let go” of all the negative stuff, because I actually had the time to do so.  I didn’t have to set my alarm clock each morning, I didn’t have to get up at a stupidly early hour, and I didn’t have to “accomplish” anything specific on my time off.  It was, after all, my time off.  I chose to take it because I felt I needed a bit of a break from the daily routine, and the associated stress.  I needed some time for me. What I didn’t realize at the time, was that it was going to turn out to be one of the best decisions I’d ever made for myself.                                                                       

We ended up hopping in the car, going on a few road trips around B.C.,  visiting both sides of the family, and not worrying about a single thing.  We went out and saw things, did things, that we normally would never have the time to do.  We had fun, and we packed so many things into our days, yet they still seemed to go on and on.

     I had time to go out for breakfasts, lunches, coffees etc. with many of my girlfriends that I hadn’t been able to spend quality time with in ages.  It was a lot of little things, but important things, to me.

      I can honestly say that I have never felt truly “relaxed” before this time off.  Tropical vacations get me close, but this is a whole other level.  I have had time to visit places I’ve never been before, I’ve had wonderful visits with friends and family, and I’ve had a lot of time to think about my life,  what’s really important to me, and how I can make this great feeling last.  This is going to require a lot of effort on my part, but at least I am now absolutely clear on which things in my life will have to be changed.  I am now prepared to move forward, since I have a clear head, and a well-rested body.

      As for the music, I am also now better prepared to dedicate myself to this path.  I always knew I wanted to pursue it seriously, but often got slowed down by the fact that I was literally emotionally , physically, and creatively drained by the end of a day at work.  I guess it’s about priorities, really, and now I know that some choices must be made.  I will keep you posted on this.

      I met with Jarome a couple of days ago, and things are going well.  He is hoping to have backup vocals for my single done soon ( an 80’s dance track ) and is already working on the music for my next song, an 80’s ballad.  We are both really excited about this project, and now that I am in a better place about things, we look forward to accomplishing a lot in the next couple of months.

      Things are going to be very different in the next while, but that’s alright with me.  I may be going back to the “day job” for now, but at least I have a fresh new perspective, and I know that it’s only a matter of time …


  1. Andrew, April 18, 2008:

    Well, at least you are back at it Heather. Also, I just discovered that another friend of mine knows Jarome. Keep going cause I know you can do it!

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